For those of you who do not know, under the blog window, at the bottom of each post there is a place for you to leave any comments about that particular post. Funny enough it says "Make a comment". Its a tiny "link". Just click on it and scroll down if need be, there will be a place that has your nickname in it and a box for you to type in. I didn't know about this until just recently. So I thought I would pass it on, just in case. Anywhoo, hope to hear from you.
BTW Steph, is there a friggin spell check in here somewhere??
Sunday, January 25, 2004
Expanding the family
Upon much discussion and a few tears, my husband and I have decided to start trying to get pregnant in May of this year. There are many factors regarding this decision. One of them being that if I get preg in May or June, then I won't be going through hot flashes and shit like that in the middle of the hottest summer months. Also, this will give me time to begin to prepare my body, taking the proper vitamins, getting some exersize and hopefully shedding a few pounds. All of which will help to ensure a healthy pregnancy. Also this would mean the baby would arrive in a bout a year from now. Time to get finances under control and to do research on daycare etc...
Whew, there sure is a lot to think about. My age is a consideration as well, no matter how perfect everything goes, I am considered high risk simply for being over 35. As well as having been diagnosed with uterine fibroid tumors a few years ago. Luckily the little buggers are on the outside of the uterus. This drops the chances of complications by like 75 to 80%. I'm not saying they are not a concern, but I do think I am more concerned than I need to be. I have an appointment with a new OB/GYN next month. Hopefully she will be able to let me know exactly what my concerns should be and get me going on what to do about them. There is no cure for these little bastards, but there are certain kinds of therapies available. More than likely we will just leave them be.
The more I think about all this, the more excited I get. I knew almost from the moment I met Beau that I wanted to have his child. Something I never thought I wanted before. I know now that it wasn't that I didn't want to have kids, but that I didn't want to have kids with Michael (thats the ex). It's funny how being with the right person makes all the difference in the world. I love my husband so much, and having a baby with him is just another way for us to share our love. The love we have for one another is abundant, and there is more than enough to share. Our little love cups overfloweth like crazy! I imagine that with a child in our family, we will be swimming in all that beautiful squishy green love goo. LOL Nice visual huh??
Whew, there sure is a lot to think about. My age is a consideration as well, no matter how perfect everything goes, I am considered high risk simply for being over 35. As well as having been diagnosed with uterine fibroid tumors a few years ago. Luckily the little buggers are on the outside of the uterus. This drops the chances of complications by like 75 to 80%. I'm not saying they are not a concern, but I do think I am more concerned than I need to be. I have an appointment with a new OB/GYN next month. Hopefully she will be able to let me know exactly what my concerns should be and get me going on what to do about them. There is no cure for these little bastards, but there are certain kinds of therapies available. More than likely we will just leave them be.
The more I think about all this, the more excited I get. I knew almost from the moment I met Beau that I wanted to have his child. Something I never thought I wanted before. I know now that it wasn't that I didn't want to have kids, but that I didn't want to have kids with Michael (thats the ex). It's funny how being with the right person makes all the difference in the world. I love my husband so much, and having a baby with him is just another way for us to share our love. The love we have for one another is abundant, and there is more than enough to share. Our little love cups overfloweth like crazy! I imagine that with a child in our family, we will be swimming in all that beautiful squishy green love goo. LOL Nice visual huh??
Friday, January 23, 2004
Late introduction
As I was driving to work today it occurred to me that I never made a proper introduction. So here goes.
My name is Debra, though most of my friends call me Ville. (It's short for Debzville). I am a 36 year-old female, married and currently living in Kansas, although I was born and lived in California until the age of 24. At that time I had just been married and my now ex-husband and I moved to Colorado, where we spent the next 5 years. In the fall of 97 we separated and I moved to Kansas City Kansas.
On Halloween of that year I met and fell in love with the man I am now married to. His name is Beau. It was love at first bite and he moved in with me immediately. We lived together for a little more than five years, then last March 3 2003. (03-03-03) we were married. It was a very intimate ceremony. Only the 2 of us and 2 of our closest friends, along with a preacher (we called him Brother Love) and his sister Ollie. The ceremony took place in the coziness of our own living room. It was perfect. I wouldn't have changed a thing.
Not long after we decided to buy a house. Now we live in Leavenworth, Kansas and are still gooey-eyed over one another. Feels as though that may never pass and I am glad.
I am an office manager for a brick company and my husband is a Senior Agent for an insurance broker. With any luck we will get pregnant sometime this year. I will keep you updated on that. Anyway, thats the gist of it. If I have left anything out I am sure my friends will be the first to chime in and add the appropriate information. I hope anyone reading this is having a good day
My name is Debra, though most of my friends call me Ville. (It's short for Debzville). I am a 36 year-old female, married and currently living in Kansas, although I was born and lived in California until the age of 24. At that time I had just been married and my now ex-husband and I moved to Colorado, where we spent the next 5 years. In the fall of 97 we separated and I moved to Kansas City Kansas.
On Halloween of that year I met and fell in love with the man I am now married to. His name is Beau. It was love at first bite and he moved in with me immediately. We lived together for a little more than five years, then last March 3 2003. (03-03-03) we were married. It was a very intimate ceremony. Only the 2 of us and 2 of our closest friends, along with a preacher (we called him Brother Love) and his sister Ollie. The ceremony took place in the coziness of our own living room. It was perfect. I wouldn't have changed a thing.
Not long after we decided to buy a house. Now we live in Leavenworth, Kansas and are still gooey-eyed over one another. Feels as though that may never pass and I am glad.
I am an office manager for a brick company and my husband is a Senior Agent for an insurance broker. With any luck we will get pregnant sometime this year. I will keep you updated on that. Anyway, thats the gist of it. If I have left anything out I am sure my friends will be the first to chime in and add the appropriate information. I hope anyone reading this is having a good day
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
November spawned a monster
I've really been missing Cteev today. I have been listening to some of my 80's stuff, and so many of the songs take on a different meaning now that he is gone. I have so many memories wrapped up in music and often I am taken back to certain moments by just hearing one. I sometimes think about how much I wish I could have spent more time with him during his last few years. I know that "woulda coulda shoulda" is futile. But I cannot help how I feel. The first year was really hard. It would nag at me constantly. I still don't know why I didn't go see him when I was in California last time. I mean I know why, but the reasons seem so petty now. If I had known that was the last opportunity I would have to see him alive, those reasons would have not even been an issue.
I don't live in the past, and I know that there is nothing I could have done to make the present any different than it is. I just have "days". These days are getting fewer and farther between, and perhaps one day the regrets will disappear altogether. But for now I just deal with them as they come. But now, as I write this I am sure I can feel him standing over my right shoulder saying, "Oh Debs, don't even worry! I was always totally stoked on you."
It'll pass. It always does.
I don't live in the past, and I know that there is nothing I could have done to make the present any different than it is. I just have "days". These days are getting fewer and farther between, and perhaps one day the regrets will disappear altogether. But for now I just deal with them as they come. But now, as I write this I am sure I can feel him standing over my right shoulder saying, "Oh Debs, don't even worry! I was always totally stoked on you."
It'll pass. It always does.
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
2 steps forward...blah blah blah
I understand the phrase all too well. Every time I think we are going to get ourselves back on track again financially, something goes fucking wrong. This time it is a $500.00 mechanics bill.
Where the hell is this American dream we heard so much about?? Grr!!! Hundreds of million Americans are scraping by day to day trying to scratch out a living, and Bush wants to initiate another trip to the moon! How much will that cost us? How much did it cost to land a friggin robot on Mars? But I can't afford to buy "the good" toilet paper.
But I don't want to bitch!! I really don't. The whole thing just makes me angry and that leads to acne and stomachaches. (I got 2 good zits going right now.) LOL. I try to stay focused on the good things. I really do. Like the fact that I have finally found the one person I know I was meant to be with. That together we worked really hard to buy a home. A home that we both love. That I have the best group of "frieds" in the whole wide world, and I know that no matter what happens they will always be around.
So, from time to time I get really pissed off and frustrated at the way this country treats its own people, but deep down inside I know how lucky I am to have those people in my life. I know so many people that don't have a clue about what it really means to have true friends. And that makes me happy and sad all at the same time.
Where the hell is this American dream we heard so much about?? Grr!!! Hundreds of million Americans are scraping by day to day trying to scratch out a living, and Bush wants to initiate another trip to the moon! How much will that cost us? How much did it cost to land a friggin robot on Mars? But I can't afford to buy "the good" toilet paper.
But I don't want to bitch!! I really don't. The whole thing just makes me angry and that leads to acne and stomachaches. (I got 2 good zits going right now.) LOL. I try to stay focused on the good things. I really do. Like the fact that I have finally found the one person I know I was meant to be with. That together we worked really hard to buy a home. A home that we both love. That I have the best group of "frieds" in the whole wide world, and I know that no matter what happens they will always be around.
So, from time to time I get really pissed off and frustrated at the way this country treats its own people, but deep down inside I know how lucky I am to have those people in my life. I know so many people that don't have a clue about what it really means to have true friends. And that makes me happy and sad all at the same time.
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